Month: May 2002

I wish I was able to write. I use to keep diaries on and off but mainly on when I was younger (14 – 19 or so), few people knew they existed two maybe three and no-one ever got to see them. I keep this blog for pretty much the same reason, I enjoy it. I don’t know why, maybe it’s the simple fact of having the records available, maybe it’s a place to vent or even just express myself. I just wish I could do it better.

I don’t like people that smoke, not in a personal sense of course but in general. I was in the pub tonight with 5 others, 4 were smoking and it just caused me to not want to be there so I headed home. This was a good thing in that I am not in the pub again tonight and I need to do that more often. But anyways it’s a filthy habit blah blah blah. This leads to the pretty much factual statement although we’ll expand on this in a while but pretty much in terms of girls, if they smoke I’m just not interested. I know that’s kinda harsh but it can be simply boiled down to the simple taste factor. I have no interest in kissing someone who smells and tastes like smoke. Anyways its never been an issue but I did get some grief on it a few weeks ago when it came up in conversation. I don’t know what my reaction would be if anyone I ever had or indeed have a crush on started smoking but I can’t imagine it would be good.
So having said all that I’m pretty much a liar there was this one time where I was in a pub with a group of friends and we had had a lot to drink. Anyways we ended up joining a large group of people but I spent quite a while talking with one of the girls in that party. I’d seen her in the pub earlier as we had been admiring the views (so to speak) all night and well I hadn’t been overly impressed. But anyways after talking with her for a couple of hours (and still being involved with the group of people) I came to the sudden realisation that I liked her a lot, she was really cool and really really nice and all of the sudden the other things didn’t matter. Nothing came of it, I like to think (completely unrealistically) that something could have but such is life. It’s been on my mind for a while and I wanted to write about it. I just wish I could do it better.

A couple of weeks ago I picked up Alternative Eighties and while it’s got some really cool stuff on it I’ve been hooked by Furniture’s “Brilliant Mind”. I’m repeating it way too much.

Somtimes you just have to bash your head of a wall repeatedly because even if you can’t do something about it, your right and it is important and you can’t let them forget it.

Legalise makes my head hurt, I’m gonna have to go home and read all this. On lighter fronts the weather outside is beautiful 🙂
That is all.

So Star Wars opened today worldwide…yawn, seen it already NEENER NEENER NEENER, if you really want to see something go here and enjoy the trailer for The Matrix Reloaded and The Matrix Revolutions.

Read it here

Anyways, it’s late and I’m tired and I really shouldn’t let this get to me as much as it does but…
There is a a highly vocal contingent over at the WEF led by Warren himself who feel that comics are too buttonholed into the super-hero genre and that they could be used as so much more. They are damn right but I have to admit I don’t like the don’t buy superhero comics because there is so much more and you should buy that instead attitude. I enjoy the comics I read, that’s why I buy them and read them. I got into comics reading superhero stuff when I was young(er) and I am quite proud that I have read a lot of other stuff but I would never have were it not for X-Men. That doesn’t bother me it use to be I read about 50 individual titles a month and they were all spandex stuff, these days that is a hell of a lot less and I can’t think of a single title that I get because of the character in specific, it’s all down to the writing these days for me. Bendis gets bought, Ellis gets bought, Gaiman gets bought, Smith gets bought, Busiek gets bought, Straczynski gets bought.

But ya know looking at it like that, I bought Powers book 1 about 18 months ago I guess and I loved the book, but more than that the writing blew me away and as a direct result of that I bough the JINX line by Bendis and wow if that ain’t good stuff. “Alan Moore this, Alan Moore that” , etc. etc lead me to read Watchmen because I had to this of course lead to From Hell and Swamp Thing and the ABC stuff and you know that rocks.

But I digress, yes there is a lot of superhero stuff and yes there is too much. Yes, there is other stuff out there and yes there is not enough but give me a chance, I’m getting there and I’m enjoying the ride. The WEF has influenced my reading material more than anything else I can think of in my life and I hope it continues to do so for a long time, but ya know cut me some slack. You had to learn once too and hell lets face it the WEF would not be what it is today if Warren Ellis hadn’t written superhero comics and indeed one of the most revolutionary superhero comics in recent years (yeah yeah blah blah).

About 8 months ago I was working on a project which was unfortunately eventually abandoned and I had a major problem with one of my aspects on it. It was never something I was able to fix, it was just not working and nothing I tried got anywhere. However today I’ve just solved it. Thanks to a new set of tools I was able to see the exact error that was going on and put a fix in place in seconds. It’s a damn nice feeling. While in one sense I’m kicking myself for not seeing it and indeed for letting it happen in the first place I’m more happy that I managed to finally figure it out and sort it.

Where did all this come from, well that’s another story. I’ve been fighting or at least requesting a lot to get a problem fixed before we reach an important milestone as I felt it would reflect really badly on our work. So I brought it up again with my boss yesterday and the simple reply was “if you want it done by then, you have to do it”. Its not something I wanted to it, I really didn’t, it meant going back and working on some of my old responsibilities which I have tried to distance myself from, but I was not happy to let it go out as it was. So thinking about it last night I decided that fuck it, it was more important to me to have it working than to have to worry everything else and you know what I’m kinda proud of that. It doesn’t work right now, but the problem is fixed and when our install goes through later tonight it will be fixed and it will be fixed when I sit at my desk in the morning and sign on, and I am looking forward to that. It’s gonna look good and hell it’s going to make me happy. NOW we can go beta, I have spoken 🙂

I’m not quite sure who this is a two fingers to, but it certainly feels like it is to someone and it feels damn good.

“Yes, my son, that may be true, but sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.”
Sigmund Freud

Very famous words and very wise words too. As much as I would like to read deeply into a lot of things, in reality its all wrong. Sometimes isn’t the right word, in fact most times a cigar is just a cigar and rightly so. Ya know it’s just not gonna happen, the world does’nt like you that much, it never has and it never will. Well that’s not entirely true, it has been that nice and well gah.

And in a trivia note of the day, I had no idea that “Everybody’s talking” by The Beautiful South was in fact a cover version and the song was originally by Harry Nilsson.

In other news, Clive Cusslers “Sahara” is finally going to be made as a movie

I haven’t had a holiday in going on two years and it’s really getting to me these days. I am fed up of being tired all the time. While I like having the option to build up my holidays and to have time off when I want it, it’s really starting to look like it’s not worth it. I cannot remember the last time I wasn’t tired. Two years ago I went to Toronto and New York and D.C. and I had a blast. It was a wonderful time, but since then I’ve been in D.C. twice for work and yes both times were great and I had a blast but I was working. I’ve been in Dublin numerous times and I’ve spent a long weekend in France. None of them count as holidays though. I’m gonna have to change that and soon. If I wanted to I could leave tomorrow and go away for a couple of weeks to pretty much anywhere I wanted on the face of the planet and it is damn nice to have that option and that freedom, but I guess I really just don’t want to go alone. (and yes that was an issue too)

So I’m having what seems to be a major personalty clash with someone in my life. We just don’t seem to be able to get along when we are out together and it’s getting to the point where we both get pissed off and our friends out with us aswell do to. I can’t figure out what it is, I do think that my sense of humour is a factor, I could be wrong but I think she tends to miss a lot of it or take it more seriously than it is intended. It’s not a good situation and I have no clue what to do about it. I do actually like her and for a while we got on pretty well for a while but recently its just not working.

On a far lighter note our office joke list is discussing the “Sexiest Movie Stars of all time” for a future feature on the service. So far I have the lovely Christina Ricci and the equally lovely Eliza Dushku. I am sure I will have many others to add to the list but right now they are the major standouts. Natalie Portman and Kirsten Dunst may feature on there but I believe I am being swayed by recent exposure (and please no comments on that…I wish). Thinking about it, the stunning Lucy Liu will also have to be included. More as the emails go on.

So it may have taken 7 emails but my Amazon problems have been resolved. After finally getting through the form letters I got a reply which was a simple “I’m sorry I don’t know how that happened” which was all I really wanted. They did however refund me the full charges which was nice of them. 🙂

Also in todays mention that I have seen “Attack of the Clones” (neener neener neender) the title actually makes alot of sense and works quite well in context when the movie is over.

There are other aspects to being single that I had forgotten, (come on it’s been a while) must be more careful with flirting.