Month: March 2003

Blog Shares has been providing me with some amusement for today. It’s good fun so far and I’m not doing too badly.

I went out for that little walk earlier, not much of a walk but it was good to be out in the air for a while. I grabbed some food and read for a while. It was all good. Instinct is an interesting thing. I had a thought a few weeks ago which seemed to be a little out there and hit the nail on the head at the same time. The same thought struck me while I was out walking and I’m thinking that instead of dismissing it out of hand like I did, that in fact I’m going to do a complete 180 and go with it. It certainly changes a few things and something which despite the fact it could (and is more than likely) be 100% wrong, perhaps assuming it is true would be a good thing.

Watched some new SG1 tonight. Nothing really great but some solid enough stuff to keep me entertained. Just finished watching West Wing which was very enjoyable. I just wish they would show it at a better time which I am sure to catch.

Music wise, I need some light music at the moment. Ryan Adams has had a few listens and REM’s last Reveal but I still have this urge to listen to something new and light and something which I don’t have and indeed can’t put my finger on. I guess I shall just keep going.

Reading wise, I got through well over 150 pages today which is good because this morning was I looking at the book and realising that I wasn’t sure I really wanted to read the last 250 odd pages. So now with it down to less than 100, I am looking forward to finishing it and moving on.

I’m working from home in the morning which isn’t ideal but I don’t really have any choice. Hopefully they will come and go early in the morning. Seen as a lot has happened over the past few days and my boss is back from holiday in the morning, I expect there to be some major catch-up all around. There is also quite a deadline for early next week and we could be very rushed to get all of that done. Hopefully not but ya never know.

We use a piece of software in work called Meeting Maker. It’s very self explanatory, it’s used to invite people to meetings and book locations (or dial in numbers) for them. Increasingly I use it to keep track of my personal life aswell. When I know there is something specific going on, I’ll note it down and label it private. But it’s getting to the stage where I want to be able to access this anywhere. Unfortunately I can’t sync it with my PDA, they are not yet compatible and I can’t use the handy publish to web feature as there is too much information about work meetings in there. So I guess I am just going to have to stop and use something. I’ve sorta used AOL calendar on and off but not certain it does exactly what I need it to.

I don’t think I have anything going on this week, which to be honest would be good. Some quiet time at home reading would really work. The weekend should also be quiet too, my mom and sister are coming over to stay. It’s is Kate’s 18th birthday so she is getting a trip to London to go shopping. Shit, NOTE TO SELF; get her a present. So there will be dinner out or something like that I expect. My flatmate is away, she is off to Rome for a few days on Wednesday which would be really nice. Someday I want to be able to just drop everything and go off to somewhere nearby for a weekend break. Yes, sure I know that in theory I can do that now without many problems but that’s only in theory.

Hmm that kinda leads me onto something else. Well, probably only in the logic which falls for mine but … sometimes, and perhaps even all the time it’s easier to type out your thoughts. I know that in general it is for me here, but obviously there is a lot of things I leave out. But this goes for im too. I was talking to a friend in the US late one night last week and we were typing in mid-conversation she rang my mobile so that we could talk instead. Uh uh, it just wasn’t happening. The conversation wasn’t going to continue over the phone and about 30 seconds later the phones were down and we were still typing away at each other. I don’t think I explained that very well to her at the time but maybe I have now.

Do you ever feel like being selfish? Not necessarily going out of your way to be selfish but just that perhaps for a change it might be nice to put yourself first? I’m having that feeling more and more of late in a number of situations. I don’t think that it’s unfair and selfish isn’t the right word (well it is, but it isn’t at the same time). I never know what to do though. I guess it all works out at the end of the day, but it rarely feels like it does. I don’t know.

I don’t understand. I was chatting with a friend earlier today about domain names. he was annoyed that his .co.uk domain had been registered as a .com domain by someone else. I was giving him grief about complaining and he said perhaps he would register my .net domain as a .com. Well, it got me thinking and indeed got me over to register.com and unfortunately idontunderstand.com is already registered or I would have picked it up this afternoon. I’ve been thinking about some other domain names for a while but it’s just something I never really got around to. Sometime in the future I think.

The WEF is no longer open and all messages have been deleted.

No comment so far, but this on Die Puny Humans

Woke up early this morning as planned and got myself a Glastonbury ticket. Then promptly went back to sleep.

It is another beautiful day out and I intend to take adavantage of this again. I think another walk somewhere would be good. I really have to get some food too. Then tonight the plan is a very quiet night at home in front of the TV before back to work tomorrow. However having said that, it’s all changed a little. It seems that we may have some gas problems in the utility room. So seen as my flatmate is away I’ll be hanging around in the morning for the British Gas engineer to check it out.

I want to get some reading done aswell, I seem to be slipping back into books. I want to finish off the readable but not very good Tami Hoag crime book I’m reading and jump into the pile of about 50 books beside my bed waiting for my attention. Some of them, I am really looking forward to. Might sit in the park and read but I’ve never been very good at that for some reason. I prefer sitting in a coffee shop or as the thought has just struck a beer garden somewhere. Hmm the pub down the road has a garden out back. Or then again I shall more than likely wander for a bit and end up in the Starbucks across the bridge.

The WEF just re-opened. A slightly in advance April Fools Day event. Wow

Today was a little strange. I was talking to a friend online last night until late. 4:30 in the end as the clocks changed over for Daylight Savings Time. I slept until about 10am this morning and then I remember being awake and looking at my clock. Next I know it’s 2pm. I guess I nodded off again. I decided that I needed to go out for a while, the sun was shining and it was a beautiful day so I thought I would walk towards Sloane Square along the river and then wander back along King’s Road. And you know what? I did exactly that. It was pretty much the first day of summer as far as I’m concerned. I was walking along the river, I needed my sunglasses, there was the smell of freshly cut grass and I had some good music going. How much more summer can you get?

It was all good, I walked through some of the parks and by the water and it was nice. It was a good place to get lost in my thoughts. Or perhaps to even find my way in my thoughts. Not really sure how that turned out. I think I was walking pretty much like a zombie for most of the time, something I do tend to do every now and again and combined with the music and shades I was so in a world of my own. It was good I guess.

The music was also good (to say the least): The Essential Clash. I have to admit there seems to be a huge gap in my music knowledge here. I knew a number of these tracks, but I had no idea who they were and none that they were all by the same band. So that kept me going and indeed I’m listening to it right now.

Met up with a friend and we decided to go and see a movie. The timing was bad for what we wanted. So we booked tickets for a late show and then headed around to Riley’s to play some snooker for a change. Jesus we were shit. Really really shit. I’ve never played on a full size table before and they are fucking big tables. It was really tough to get use to and neither of us really did. It didn’t help that we were not sure on the rules and we ended up just playing a couple of games in general. Good fun tho, and something to bear in mind for the future.
And then the cinema, The Rules of Attraction was the pick for tonight. I enjoyed it a lot. It was like 10 short somewhat interrelated pieces put together and done with style. It was funny and in places (you had to look hard) touching. Having said that, the suicide scene was quite harrowing and somewhat uncomfortable to watch. All in all, well worth seeing.

Last week Radiohead announced details of their forthcoming sixth album Hail to the Thief. As it turns out preview copies were sent out aswell. Seen as we live in such a modern age and as the electric internet is everywhere, these copies have turned up online. 14 files of hopefully wonderful goodness. Now of course, the live recordings of some of these songs have been around for over two years, but that’s not what I want. I want to hear the clear and crisp studio tracks and then the live tracks. I’m really looking forward to seeing them in Dublin in a few weeks and I shall be stopping off on my way to work to pick up the album on it’s release date.

Do you ever feel like if you could just talk to someone and say the words then it would all be ok?

Of course you do, we all do. I use to think I was unique, but I know better than that. It’s a pretty common thought from what I know and it applies across the board. If only you can communicate your thoughts then everything will be fine.

A world like that would indeed be a finer world.

they call me the apologist
and now that i’m at peak
you know at first it really hurt
we joke about these things
i’ve skirted all my differences
but now i’m facing up
i wanted to apologize for
everything i was so
i’m sorry so sorry

did you understand me right
the people here are good
they tell me what i should have done
and offer what i could
i’m good all is good
all’s well no complaints
when i feel regret
i get down on my knees and pray
i’m sorry so sorry

i live a simple life
unfettered by complex sweets
you think this isn’t me
don’t be weak
there i go
i’m so sorry

thank you for being there for me
thank you for listening goodbye
i can forfeit selfishness
i hope for you that you apply
this happiness
this peacefulness
i’m sorry so sorry

i live a simple life
unfettered by complex sweets
you think this isn’t me
that’s so sweet
i’m so sorry

The Apologist by R.E.M.

A quote from that was the random choice across the top when I checked my last post had published ok. It seemed so very appropriate.

I’m rebelling against music a lot this week. I’ve not had a chance to listen to anything in work as I’ve been working in the CD lab for most of the week. My computer won’t play music and when I do get to listen to stuff I can’t listen to it for too long without feeling the need for silence. It is quite a strange feeling. I’m listening to Ryan Adams’ Gold while I’m reading downstairs and it’s doing allright so far. Might be mild enough to keep going but I must admit I was much more caught up in the music. I’ve just read the six issue mini Spider-Man: Blue from Jeph Loeb and Tim Sale. I had been wondering what the ‘blue’ was in relation to and when they out and said it at the end it got to me a little and reminded me of a few things.

Oh I’ve mentioned this before I think but I’m going to mention it again. Alex Maleev is one of the best artists in the business these days. Someday in the future I am going to own some of his original artwork for Daredevil and it will hang on my wall with great pride.

Last night was kinda strange. There was the usual group and then some down the pub taken over a large corner to raise some drinks to a departing friend. There was talking, laughing and of course outragous flirting…same as usual then.

Some planning going on too, Glastonbury tickets go on sale on Monday and a group of us are planning on going together. Then it looks like a week later pretty much the same group will be off to Stockholm for a stag night. That I expect will be a heavy weekend.

Just watched Angel 4×16 ‘Players’, it wasn’t bad. Nice to see Gwen back and a decent little plot for her but I could have done without the Gunn ending. I do wonder how next weeks episode will start. I was pretty sure we were watching Lorne’s death scene and I am quite glad we were not.

I want to go out and do something but I don’t know what. I think I wante to go to the cinema and see something but I’m pretty sure I don’t want to meet anyone today. I’ve not spent much time on my own in a while and I’m thinking it would be a good thing to do. Perhaps I shall jump on a bus into town in a while and just see what happens. I do want to pick up a single out from Hope of the States whom I saw live a couple of times recently.

Oh yes, my day off yesterday. Well it wasn’t as off as I liked I ended up in the office dealing with some stuff in the afternoon and could possibly have to do the same on Monday. So aswell as seeing everyone in the pub last night, I saw many people in work too. Yipee.

Oh something I think I should state (perhaps more for my own benefit) and I’m sure there is a quote I know that covers it but I can’t think of it right now. So anyway people don’t always see the same things the same way and just because you see it one way doesn’t mean anyone else will.

You know that the world has gone mad when the best rapper is White, the best golfer is Black, the French are accusing the Americans of arrogance, and the Germans don’t want to go to war.

Gah and things go from bad to worse.

I have just been out, I have got food and a couple of comics. Both were urgently required.

Tonight I am going to a leaveing do for one of the girls from work. She is off back home to the US. It has the potential to be a long and rough night. Not for me I don’t think so tonight.

I watched Buffy 7×17 this morning. It wasn’t bad. The Spike / Wood thing played out quite nicely. The Mac was a lovely little touch. going to go do some reading now and leave Angel downloading.

I am so very glad I have Monday off. I do have to be up at 9am in order to get Glastonbury tickets but nevertheless I don’t have to go to work for the day and I can lie around doing nothing. This is often a good thing.

*sigh*

fuck it all to hell. Now I’m second guessing myself and wondering if I am in fact a complete muppet.
And if, if I am, then I need to change something quickly before I become such a hypocrite…

someone tell me why I do the things, that I don’t want to do?