Gah. I don’t even know where to begin. Well, actually I do. ‘Gah’ was introduced to my vocabulary by Iain and it is entirely his fault that it has stuck.

I’m not discussing lunch today here…for a while anyway, but fuck it was an expierence and one I hope to never repeat. It scared me quite badly.

I feel the need to point something out, just in case. Despite anything I may have ever said about my job or the people I work with, I would like to say for the record and with complete sincerity there are a number of people whom I love and respect and would do anything I could for.

The answer to any number of questions is ‘I don’t know’. I’ve been thinking about a lot of stuff tonight and I just don’t know.

I am not doing too great, somethings have hit…I’d like to said harder than I expected but that would not be true. They have hit hard and I’m not sure how I’m really feeling, perhaps reeling would be a better word even if it is less accurate. *sigh* No-one ever said the world was fair and I guess I can’t really say a break would be nice every now and again, maybe I’ve already had mine.

Sleep now, computer is staying on and hopefully online overnight for new Buffy and new Radiohead tracks to download (fingers crossed), goodnight all and tread softly.