My head hurts so much right now.

I don’t understand anything. Nothing makes sense and last night was a really really really shit night.

I have to buy a suit.

That was some good news to start the day off with.

*sigh*
I’m annoyed with a lot of people right now. Some more than others and of course myself more than others.

Gah. I don’t even know where to begin. Well, actually I do. ‘Gah’ was introduced to my vocabulary by Iain and it is entirely his fault that it has stuck.

I’m not discussing lunch today here…for a while anyway, but fuck it was an expierence and one I hope to never repeat. It scared me quite badly.

I feel the need to point something out, just in case. Despite anything I may have ever said about my job or the people I work with, I would like to say for the record and with complete sincerity there are a number of people whom I love and respect and would do anything I could for.

The answer to any number of questions is ‘I don’t know’. I’ve been thinking about a lot of stuff tonight and I just don’t know.

I am not doing too great, somethings have hit…I’d like to said harder than I expected but that would not be true. They have hit hard and I’m not sure how I’m really feeling, perhaps reeling would be a better word even if it is less accurate. *sigh* No-one ever said the world was fair and I guess I can’t really say a break would be nice every now and again, maybe I’ve already had mine.

Sleep now, computer is staying on and hopefully online overnight for new Buffy and new Radiohead tracks to download (fingers crossed), goodnight all and tread softly.

I’m watching the beeb and they have just shown a piece about how a group of coalition soldiers took a town which had got some Iraqi troops holed up in a building in the centre. Impressive footage or as the reporters seem to like calling it; dramatic pictures.

Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams

WinMX is rocking my world in the best of ways. I’ve got a gig (give or take a few mb) of live tracks or live covers of songs I love. It’s just so very awesome. Quite a Sigur Ros, Radiohead, R.E.M., Smashing Pumpkins and U2 showing but some other cool stuff slipping in there aswell. On as equally a good note, I have some new Radiohead material. It’s all good, now if only my computer would behave.

I’m listening to Beautiful Day from Slane ’01 and it’s a really bad recording as it’s mainly the crowd singing and gotta pump the volume up to full to hear the music and Bono singing. It’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever heard.

Caught up on 24 yesterday and it was ok. Nothing really great but it was ok. Heading out to the cinema later on with a detour for food somewhere along the way and possibly some pool playing too.

Was talking to a friend last night and after spending a few minutes wondering why she thought it was Saturday, I realised that I was wrong and it was not in fact Friday, but late Saturday night. This was followed by the thought that I had no breakfast, lunch or dinner on Friday so there was lots of drinking on top of an empty stomach. The normal coke and candy to get through the day not withstanding. Damn, no wonder I was so hungover.

Today has been a quiet day. Slept in till 12ish and then didn’t really do much. Watched the Grand Prix, and may just be getting back into it. If the rest of the season goes like the first two races have, it could be really good.

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On the war news front, the friendly fire casualties are really adding up. Latest news would seem to show that the missing ITN news reporters are believed to have been killed by coalition fire. Added to that, an RAF plane was shot down by US Patriot missiles thinking it was a scud. I have to say I’m a little stumped by people showing surprise that there are parts of the Iraqi army actually fighting. They seem to be missing the point that the US led “coalition of the willing” is invading their country. I really can’t imagine why anyone would want to fight the forces invading their country </sarcasm>. And I note that to date, the only weapons of mass desruction have been used by the invaders.
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Listening to some of the music which I’m listening to and loving everyone moment of right now is also depressing the fuck out of me. So I’m going to go and I’m going to get some food and I’m going to load up my discman with the best of U2 from the nineties and just see where the flow goes…although the 80’s is very tempting.

Not a very long piece of string then.

Ok fine, I can’t hack it. I enjoy and look forward to writing here too much to give it up. Going home last night, blogging about stuff was one of the thoughts weighing on my mind. So I guess for the time being, the blogging shall continue.

Right last night was fucked up is possibly a good description. As it was a Friday and one of the guys was leaving in work, we went to the pub for some drinks. This of course ensured a good turnout and there were lots of people there. Unfortunately events of the night lead to either conclusions or indeed closure. Oh for fuck sake, I’m sitting here with CD:UK on in the background and Cat Deeley has just said something along the lines of “and here is Busted with a song about being turned down by the girl you fancy”. It takes the idea a step far but could sum up last night quite a bit.

I used the words “I don’t understand” so many times last night and I still don’t understand. (ohh on the good news front, CD:UK has just moved onto a lovely little live version of Coldplay’s Clocks). Nothing seems to make sense and even in the cold sober (yet hungover) light of day it makes little sense. *sigh* I guess that is just the way of the world…

In other news Things My Girlfriend and I Have Argued About did the rounds of the office yesterday and had me and many others in stitches for a long time. Well, worth a read and if nothing here makes you laugh you just don’t have a sense of humour.

In world news, war is bad and yet again I’m like the rest of the world waking up to see images of the US and the UK pounding Baghdad into the ground. BBC news reported that 300 missiles/bombs were used overnight. For FUCK sake.