I don’t know what’s going on. I’ve been realising how much I’m missing some people not in my life anymore. It’s all quite strange. It’s been over a year since I saw most of them, hell it’s been about 5 years since I saw some of them and it’s only recently that I really realised that they were missing, no scrap that I always knew they were. I only realised recently how much it was affecting me. I guess some of it really struck home when I had some news last week and could only think of one person who would have had the same reaction to it that I did. It’s been a while.

Then there are others, people I grew up with, people I went to school with, you know the type of friends people normally make. It struck me the other day, and yes it’s plainly obvious, that’s how you make most of your long term friends and that’s what is missing from London. I’ve mentioned before that I don’t know many people in London outside of work and that’s a big part of it.

Goddamn, the absolutely haunting hafssól by Sigur Ros is accompanying this entry and I’m right back at Glastonbury where this was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever heard in my life. So very powerful so very beautiful so very perfect. The review of them at Glastonbury from dot music ends like this: “words mean nothing in the face of this.” I wish I was smart enough to have said that.

Anyway it’s a gap. I have some good friends in work and I appreciate them a hell of a lot (even if I don’t always tell them that), meeting some others tomorrow night the cinema. I don’t remember the last time I saw them. I may go back and check the archives to figure it out but it’s been a while.

I have to go now, there is 9 ball in my future. more anon