Month: February 2004

tell it like you still believe.

And now I’m going to blog.

I was going to type this out this afternoon but I felt stupid, I have decided to post it anyway. Let me prefix it by stating I was not drinking at lunchtime today.
It did click briefly this afternoon and the code started to work. The floodgates opened, I typed and the code came out, it *worked*. So I’m sitting there typing, understanding the problem and working it and then for just a second I had this stupid image sitting in my head hammering me. A humanoid spirit form of some sort coming out of me and moving towards the computer, becoming one with the code. Real stupid eh? But it stuck with me, as an image, big time. I suspect I reacted someway to this image as it broke everything, I just couldn’t get it to flow anymore and I’ve left the code saved in a text file on my desktop. LIke I said it was stupid but that’s how it was.

I really want to start this next paragraph with the words “Like most men”, I’m not sure I can and have it be true but I’m going to anyway and take it from there.

Ha fuck it, I’ll just type it out and see what happens, lets just head off one comment anyway, sexist? I haven’t got a clue, could well be but I’m not going to apologise for it. I really hate seeing women cry or even be upset, whether I know them or not. Knowing them makes it worse of course but anyway. It’s just one of those things and that’s that. So sitting there tonight, listening to someone whom I don’t know all that well tell us some things about home and listening to her voice crack and watching her trying not to cry was hard. I really hate situation like that, it’s never good to do what you really want to do and it’s just a stupid male thing anyway. So fuck it.

I hate not knowing what is going on in the world. I hate the fact that not only did I not know there are a number of countries joining the EU on the first of May, I hate the fact I don’t know how many countries there are in it now. I hate the fact that I did not know that these new countries are NOT being given the same regard as existing members and that an EU passport does not apply to them. I hate even more that it does not, it’s a disgrace, that’s part of what the fucking EU is all about.

Something else and I’m not quite sure where it came from but, I suspect it’s something to do with a forum of ignorant rednecks going on about various pieces of shit that the V is having some fun with but can you believe that less than 50 years ago, it was not only legal but it was the law to discriminate against black people. To add a little perspective to that, that’s less than 25 years before I was born and both my parents were born more than 50 years ago.

Oh yes another random cute girl. I was walking to Baron’s Court tube station yesterday after work and there was a girl with long curly red hair walking towards me. She had a very short skirt on, so naturally I noticed. She was chatting on her phone to someone and as she walked past me she said in an American accent I could not place, but was oh so pretty; “I really wish I was there to help you”. Hearts melted.

I have an idea. It’s small right now but it’s growing a little and just took quite a spurt forward. I’m going to think about it somemore over the weekend and look into some costs.

The build up in Dylan’s One Of Us Must Know is a truly excellent piece of music and I can’t help but be hit by it everytime I hear it.

It’s very strange sitting here trying to get my head back into the code I use to be so good at. It’s been a long time since I’ve actaully had to do any real work in it and I’m just waiting for it to click and start flowing. It’s getting there, I am making some progress, but what I’m doing now is in an area I always found tricky. At moments it does just click for a second and the code just falls into place. I guess what I’m trying to do is simple enough.

*sigh* I had more, I rambled on for another paragraph and then some and now my fucking choice of text editor just fucking GPF’d.

Fuck 🙁

Everyone on my team just got three $50 gift cheques from the company for the work we have been doing over the past few months.

Sweet 🙂

And I really enjoyed the play last night.

For the first time since I don’t know when I had to get some manuals out from under my desk to look up a command. It’s bring back a lot of memories and is in fact quite fun. I use to be really good at this stuff, time I actaully got it back running again!

Theatre Tip #71

Or how to sit there happily not coughing despite having a nasty chest cough!

I went into work today, I was quite late due to staying in bed longer than I should and some minor tube issues. It was an allright day I guess but by the time 6pm rolled around I really was not feeling too well and had decided that I was going to not go to the theatre. The thought of loosing the £25 I had paid for the ticket however annoyed the hell out of me and I made half hearted attempt to see if anyone in the office wanted it. No-one was free. I had decided to go into town anyway and get some comics and see how I felt closer to 8pm. So I got some comics and decided that I wanted to see the show and therefore should go.

However I didn’t think I should really go along and cough my way through it, it just would not be fair on anyone else there. So I had a brainstorm, went off to a chemist. I did mange to get to Covent Garden before remembering there is Boots right beside Tower Records inPiccadillyy Circus. Back to there and one bottle of extra strong cough syrup designed to stop chesty coughs and I’m off to the theatre. I may have perhaps ignore the dosage and had a generous swig before going in, but it worked like a charm. A much smaller swig during the interval also helped greatly.

Got a coffee at the bar, pre-ordered one for the interval and everything was good. The seating space was not too bad, better than the last time and the show was excellent. Both leads were really good…but they had not got muchchemistryy between them. I thought Luke Perry was great, much much better than I was expecting and Aly Hannigan is so so cute! Anyway it was all good, the script was funny, there were some genuine comedy moments and at least one great improv moment at the start.

I have to do more theatre, the two times I’ve been I enjoyed a hell of a lot. Heading off to the theatre promo site in another window now. Fuck me theatre prices are expensive. Couple of possibilities, but not sure I want to pay £30 upwards for em. Couple of cheap options saved in my basket now, including The Dice House for £15, will see what the lads think tomorrow at least one had expressed some interest.

Oh in other news Robert Rodriguez and Frank Miller are co-directing Miller’s Sin City. Yay!

I had planned on getting home and going straight to bed, I feel pretty wrecked. However I chatted with my flatmate, started typing, read up the V, surfed for a little and now it’s going on quarter to one in the am. Le sigh, I’ve been typing away at this on and off for an hour now. Not really much to show for that unfortunatly. I do have the excuse of having some computer problems and having to reboot a couple of times. It was quite simple in the end, the reason your modem won’t connect Dave is because one of the two green lights is flashing trying to tell you it’s not ready to connect, just be a little patient…fucker.

Anyway sleep now really does call and to confirm, I enjoyed the hell out of the show and am really glad I went along!

So I’m feeling a lot better this evening and I have had some food. Both of these rank as good things. Back to work in the morning and I have to deal with the disaster that has been my email server down for three days. I have no idea how much email I have lost in this time but it will be a good amount and lots of it being fairly important. Fuck.

On the other front, I’m going to the theatre tomorrow night. I got a ticket for When Harry Met Sally cheap in the intro to London theatre offer, picked this one mainly for the cast (Aly Hannigan and Luke Perry as the leads) and the fact it was cheap and I should take more advantage of the culture London has to offer. Damn that was hard to type out. Anyway I’m really not sure I’m actually up for it now, nevermind how I will be after a day in work. I shall see how I feel at 6 tomorrow.

That bloody Night Nurse is great…and evil. I’ve slept like a log the past couple of nights but my god have I had fucked up and disturbing dreams. Another dose tonight then and I should be pretty ready for work tomorrow.

Going back to last Friday, I went into the gig assuming there was no chance of getting my favourite Damien Rice song; Eskimo. I didn’t think they would bring along an opera singer for two minutes of one song. So when he segued (god I love that word) into it, I didn’t actually believe it was Eskimo. Then when it came towards the moment, I thought he was going to sing it himself or a tape was going to come on, but no the awesome Lisa Hannigan comes through with the soprano. It was great and really did make the gig for me.

Hmm, drugs and sleep now.

Also, one day I will get out of the habit of starting posts with “So”…someday

So I had some Night Nurse before I went to bed last night and boy did it knock me out. I normally take some time to get to sleep, I think I was gone before my head hit the pillow last night. It certainly fucked up my dreams, now that was a really strange one. Not been in work today either, I felt worse this afternoon and I suspect I won’t be tomorrow either. I’ve not managed to have much food today and my Darth Vader impression is mighty!. I shall set my alarm anyway and see how it all goes.

I watched Grosse Point Blank this afternoon. It’s a great movie, probably John Cusack’s best. Not normally a big Minnie Driver fan but she does a great job too.

For now it’s another dose of Night Nurse and off to bed.