And now I’m going to blog.
I was going to type this out this afternoon but I felt stupid, I have decided to post it anyway. Let me prefix it by stating I was not drinking at lunchtime today.
It did click briefly this afternoon and the code started to work. The floodgates opened, I typed and the code came out, it *worked*. So I’m sitting there typing, understanding the problem and working it and then for just a second I had this stupid image sitting in my head hammering me. A humanoid spirit form of some sort coming out of me and moving towards the computer, becoming one with the code. Real stupid eh? But it stuck with me, as an image, big time. I suspect I reacted someway to this image as it broke everything, I just couldn’t get it to flow anymore and I’ve left the code saved in a text file on my desktop. LIke I said it was stupid but that’s how it was.
I really want to start this next paragraph with the words “Like most men”, I’m not sure I can and have it be true but I’m going to anyway and take it from there.
Ha fuck it, I’ll just type it out and see what happens, lets just head off one comment anyway, sexist? I haven’t got a clue, could well be but I’m not going to apologise for it. I really hate seeing women cry or even be upset, whether I know them or not. Knowing them makes it worse of course but anyway. It’s just one of those things and that’s that. So sitting there tonight, listening to someone whom I don’t know all that well tell us some things about home and listening to her voice crack and watching her trying not to cry was hard. I really hate situation like that, it’s never good to do what you really want to do and it’s just a stupid male thing anyway. So fuck it.
I hate not knowing what is going on in the world. I hate the fact that not only did I not know there are a number of countries joining the EU on the first of May, I hate the fact I don’t know how many countries there are in it now. I hate the fact that I did not know that these new countries are NOT being given the same regard as existing members and that an EU passport does not apply to them. I hate even more that it does not, it’s a disgrace, that’s part of what the fucking EU is all about.
Something else and I’m not quite sure where it came from but, I suspect it’s something to do with a forum of ignorant rednecks going on about various pieces of shit that the V is having some fun with but can you believe that less than 50 years ago, it was not only legal but it was the law to discriminate against black people. To add a little perspective to that, that’s less than 25 years before I was born and both my parents were born more than 50 years ago.
Oh yes another random cute girl. I was walking to Baron’s Court tube station yesterday after work and there was a girl with long curly red hair walking towards me. She had a very short skirt on, so naturally I noticed. She was chatting on her phone to someone and as she walked past me she said in an American accent I could not place, but was oh so pretty; “I really wish I was there to help you”. Hearts melted.
I have an idea. It’s small right now but it’s growing a little and just took quite a spurt forward. I’m going to think about it somemore over the weekend and look into some costs.