Month: March 2004

– The Darkness do not bring the rock.
– Franz Ferdnand do, as do the Kings of Leon.
– That’s two nights in a row clubbing, I’m really tired now.
– I had some beers with Patrick today for the first time in a long while. It was a good afternoon and a good dinner.
– Do I shower now…or tomorrow?
– I’m off to see Starskey & Hutch tomorrow afternoon, I was the one organising it all. I wish now that I had not. I could do with a day to sleep in and do nothing. Still should be fun.
– Dancing oneself sober is quite a good thing and I certainly drank enough water that I should have no hangover at all tomorrow. I’ll just be stiff.
– Going to have to shower now really, there is no way around it.

It snowed last night, it was really pretty.

Now that’s a first sentence designed to draw the reader in and leave ’em waiting for more…or not as the case maybe.

Work isn’t fun these days, I’m quite simply not enjoying it and the days are *really* dragging by. Last night I went into town to collect some stuff after work. There were a number of trades out which I wanted to collect so I figured a swing by Comic Showcase would be a good thing. And so it was. I got everything I wanted (being lucky enough to get the last copy of Spooked) so then it was a bus trip home reading.

Almost through the Hornblowers, with some childhood illusions shattered. Hornblower is in fact a bit of a bastard and not the squeaky clean hero I remember from reading them 10 odd years ago. Nor is Bush the brave captain who serves faithfully, he’s some sort of simpering little puppy who got a bad death almost as an after thought. Anyway still enjoying the books, they get weaker towards the end but still fun. Loads of trades now lined up after them which should be good.

Last night seemed to stretch out completely. I thought it would be way late when I got home having gone shopping but the next few hours seemed to drag by which was quite pleasing. I watched the first episode of season 3 of The Shield which was good and set up some nice ideas for the rest of the season and then I watched Bubba HoTep which while being good is WAY overhyped.

Played Eve for a good while too, actually starting to get close to my main goal now which is good. It should open the game up a hell of a lot more. Skills are all coming along well too.

“It occurs to him that if he died that night he would happy. Because he was loved”

A surprisingly productive day so far despite people wasting my time. Got a number of issues resolved and this is always I guess a good thing.

Last night was good fun. We played a hell of a lot of pool. When I play with the guys from work, I’m not a particularly bad player but playing with a couple of people who are good players…well it wasn’t very good. An enjoyable evening overall and one to be repeated.

Today I am listening to some Sigur Ros and it is good. It’s helping to keep me sane and not snap at various people around here.

Still enjoying the hell out of the Hornblowers, stopped reading the paper on the way to work to keep going at em.

Please don’t read anything into what you are about to read mmm-kay?

So lets court a little controversy, I’m in favour of suicide.

There, that’s that. I have been for a long time and I’ve been meaning to mention it for a while but it’s never seemed like the right time…not sure there is one tho. Anyway I think it’s a good thing. I have no problem at all with someone who is so unhappy and so unhopeful for the future that they are prepared to kill themselves doing so. Of course there is a chance that said person will come out of it ok and get on with their life and be happy but if they don’t want to take that chance, that’s also fine by me.

I have no idea what the source of this is but something which stuck with me for a long time is a line which goes something like this:
You are not allowed to kill yourself if there is a single person in the world who cares about you.

I think it’s a good line, it makes sense and it’s even kinda fair. It’s about the only single argument against topping oneself I can come up with. The affect on others is harsh to say the least. It’s also probably worth pointing out that I don’t know anyone who has actually killed themselves, and I know very few people who have been affected by suicide. It’s just something I have an opinion on and so it sits here.

For the record I have never seriously considered suicide…and for those of you who ponder over the word seriously, don’t, I never did 😉

Flippant, Moi? Yes, perhaps but then again this is the place for it.

In closing, I may not be the happiest I have ever been in my life (ha, ya know it would take some thinking to figure out when that was) but I have been worse and I’m no-where near miserable enough to kill myself.

This post I am immensely pleased to note was brought to you by Garbage’s Version 2.0 which I have not heard in years and years. And damn but Shirley Manson is hot.

Wednesday’s are generally allright in work. The morning is taken up by 3 meetings which are generally not that bad. The team meeting is usually entertaining at the least and we often just chat for a while after the work stuff is wrapped up which I like.

I am so close to posting a name and expanding on it and trying to type stuff but I really don’t think I’m a strong enough person to do so and leave it be.

I should sleep now, perchance to dream…

Again I feel the urge to type and again I have little to say.

Package from Iceland arrived today, the stuff is really nice and seems to be good quality. So I’m quite pleased with that. Rather sadly I’m also please that it came in a sliver envelope with an Eve sticker on it…

God I still love the internet so much. I’ve lost two albums, one of them for a good while now. Luckily I can have a backup of them and I have replaced both of them till I find the original discs. Nerdy.

*sigh* Meetings are rarely fun and actually I shall leave it at that.

Going out tonight to play pool with some of the V down by Victoria station, it should be interesting. A few beers anyway and a small amount of bad pool playing as usual.

Lunch now…

I have an urge to type but I don’t know what.

– I read a book already today, first of the Hornblowers in the next series.
– Went for dinner in the Firkin with Rich and Nick after work today.
– I just broke 25 million ISK in Eve.
– This afternoon has kicked off some live Frames collecting. They encourage bootlegs … yay!
– Smallville wasn’t bad, finally wrapped up the Adam Knight thing but boy they really messed up him not being Batman.
– I’m watching Prozac Nation, god Christina Ricci is hot. She use to be so much hotter, going for the stick figure look doesn’t suit her that much. Movie is excellent so far, will give up soon to sleep and watch the rest tomorrow I think
– Yay, another day in work tomorrow, yay.
– I think I need some more Lou Reed.
– Actually I need some more music in general, some real good stuff.

I have so much love in my heart for the internet. I wanted to find the lyrics for The Pixies’ Debaser so a quick google was in order. Seconds later I had the lyrics, some comments on them with an explanation of the French phrase and a note that The Frames had covered it. Less than 90 seconds later, an mp3 of The Frames cover was sitting on my desktop. How fucking cool is that?

Yesterday afternoon I was feeling quite wrecked. There was a stupid amount of stupid cocktails in stupid testtubes shot on Saturday afternoon, early in the fucking day and it was a really bad idea. So once everyone left the flat I figured I need to go and do something and not just stay around and play Eve all day. Cinema was the plan and I had a look see what was on. 21 Grams was the choice as I really really felt in the mood for a drama about life and death…which I thought it was. It was more of a thriller, trying a little too hard to be slickly directed but still enjoyable with an awesome cast. Sean Penn show’s that despite stealing Bill Murreys award he deserves an Oscar and Bienco Del Toro giving a really top performance also well deserve of an Oscar nomination but I don’t know why it was in a supporting role and not lead…and while checking them out on IMDB I note that Naomi Watts was also nominated for her most excellent performance. So, yes a good cast.

I ordered some gear from the Eve shop last week, split an order with Dave to save on some postage. I was rather amazed to receive an email on Friday telling me that it had been delivered. Of course I get into work today and it’s not here. I suspect that “delivered” and “soon” are the same word in Icelandic. And lo and behold an email comes back confirming my theory.

Readyhosting were hacked over the weekend, not all sites but many so that’s what you saw for a while on Sunday if you were trying to look here… Most of it is back up but I still need to get a main page back. I’ve also just looked at my stats for the first time in a long while…some of them are a little odd. Something to bear in mind I guess.

Lets see, not really much other than that. I may take the bus home so I can sit there and read and listen to some music. Then I shall autopilot around Eve reading away.

I have finally been to the post office 364 days to the date I promised this stuff…man I am so very shit. I fucking hate the post office too. It took me 30 minutes to get there and back and it’s less than 5 minutes from door to door.

In what has just become one of the day’s high points, in an IM conversation with my boss I told him that I was waiting on some information and that another member of my team was chasing the girl with the info, her name is Amy. Highly amused that I typed it out and then realised. Man I have had the urge to watch it again for a while now, I think that may just have sealed the deal.

I had to run out at lunchtime and buy the next Hornblower book as I finished the last one at around 1am last night.