There are many things I would like to say to you, but I don’t know how.

It’s been a while. This one has been drawn together over a few days from a few things in draft.

– I’m not feeling any better at all despite double doses of drugs. Sleeping is hell as I can’t manage to lie down anyway comfortably. I’ve let my boss know I won’t be in tomorrow and probably not Tuesday either. I can see my doctor on Tuesday which happens to be when I had an appointment anyway. Fucking doctors over here. I’m annoyed as hell I missed last night, it should have been a damn good night.

– Oasis are laughed at a bit these days perhaps rightfully so. A lacklustre Glastonbury and no-one having given a shit about “Brit-pop” in a few years probably hasn’t helped. It’s worth remembering that the first two albums are stunners. It’s somewhat surprising every now and again when in the right frame of mind a track from either can just hit hard. I don’t think any after are worth bothering with, at least they have never really appealed to me.

– I’ve been trying to put something together about Dublin. I realised what was going on, or at least a way that I can describe, even I way I can understand what I’m thinking. It’s a romantic notion. That’s all. Well it’s very easy to type “That’s all” but its a very hard thing to get over. Not that I even think it needs to be gotten over. I’m already flying off the tracks here. There isn’t a whole lot to go back to. Job wise, I think I could go as far as to say there is nothing. It’s not true I could walk into a whole lot of entry level jobs but I would have to take at least a 30% paycut and that’s in number figures alone. I can’t do that, I have too high a style of living. I have too high a one generally but I can’t do that. One day with luck. Until then, I don’t know. I’m either going back on a regular basis or I’m not. It’s really as simple as that. In late September next year I’m going to go back for at least a week. One of my cousins is getting married and it will be a good chance to see my extended family. It will probably involve a weekend in Galway too which should be good. As to Dublin again, who knows?

– On more musicwise. A while ago I got a copy of The Michael Jackson 30th anniversay concert. I finally got around to watching it last night. It was awesome. The man is a legand and deservedly so. Someday with luck I’ll get to see a show, fuck knows if there ever will be any more but given the chance I’m going and I’d travel for one. He’s been there since the begining and I’ve never stopped coming back. Bad was the first album I ever owned. The sight of so many people in the crowd being overwhealmed wasn’t really surprising, I don’t understand it, at least I don’t understand it fully but I’m not sure it’s bad thing either. And no I’m not sure if that made sense.

– I’ve been working through the fourth season of The West Wing and damn it’s good telly. I wasn’t expecting the best to be honest, but it’s far more on track than the third and it’s funny and and I care about all most of the characters. Almost done with it now. I am not going to stay up all night watching it. Well at least I hope I’m not, with luck I can sleep for a while.

– Alan Moore knows the score. Thursday was an excellent evening. Nothing like what I expected, but I’m not entirely sure what I expected either. He was smart and funny and it was a good interview. I’m told there was nothing new in it, but I found lots of things new (like his dislike of The Killing Joke). Highly enojyable evening, the show airs sometime early in the new year. It’s due to be 30 minutes but we got close on an hour and 15 of Moore. Rock. I am re-reading all of his Swamp Thing as a result.

– I’ve not been writing much lately. Aside from not wanting to be sitting in the same place for very long I’ve not had much of an inclincation. I did consider, albiet briefly, getting up at 6 this morning when I could not sleep to type some stuff out. I’m behind on emails too. I tracked someone down…well I took the step of using google to find an old email address as I want to try and clear something up. Aside from the fact that I really don’t give a fuck about whatever bad blood went before, I dislike seeing others blamed for something they did not do.

– Eve, man Shiva is everything I wanted and then some. City of Heroes is getting suspended at the end of the month, I’m back playing Eve. So glad I trained up over the past few months. I can fly lots of ships and even a good few of the new ships which have some with Shiva. I actually went mining the other day. So yeah I’m back in there and having lots of fun. New corp all good, making some small money and having some fun. Spending some money too, actually buying good modules and that. It’s nerdy but it’s fun and it keeps me out of trouble. My old alliance (Xetic) actually seems to have grown a pair and went for a formal war declaration. It actually had me thinking about going back to them. Instead of blob wars, anyone in the other alliance could be fired upon anywhere. So much fun… My old corp of course left the alliance in an act of pure cowardice. Carebears/miners/researchers or not, leaving an alliance like that was disgraceful and plainly cowardly. Xetic have every right to be pissed at them. End Nerdage.

– no music, no life.

– I’m not sure I’m going to leave the del.ico.us stuff there. I’ll think about it.

– Moving swiftly along and to cover a whole other musical aspect, this post has been brought to you in association with Pantera’s 1992 classic Vulgar Display Of Power, now to try and sleep.