So many things going on in my mind at the moment. One thought coming through strongly the last few hours, somewhat releated to last nights postings about change. I have changed alot lately.I don’t really know how to describe it, I’ve really gotten into Graphic Novels and TPB’s ^{(Trade Paper Backs, collections of single issue comics)} recently, perhaps in no small way influenced by my discovery of Sandman and what I am collecting is tending to be all on the Vertigo/Image side. Ok some of it was recommendations from others, Kabuki and the ABC stuff, but recently Powers really did it for me, I’m getting into 100 Bullets and today I read the first volume of Transmetropolitan which I really enjoyed. None of these are kids comics, they have a “mature content” label. At the same time, I’m also going for Batman stuff, always one of the darker reads, some of the old stuff, around the death of Jason Todd (Robin 2) is really dark, also going for the team stuff, Stormwatch started quite high, not too thrilled with the second volume, and I can’t figure it I am really enjoying late 90’s Superman and JLA. Ok unless your a comics buff I’ve so lost you but it’s kinda strange. One over-riding thought is NOW I know what really good writing is.

On whole other fronts completly. Every now and then, I have these meetings where I just come out so de-motivated and depressed that I really wonder if there is any chance this will ever change. I have to keep telling myself it will, and soon. But that’s getting real old, how many times can I convince myself of that before I finally realise it won’t and that I only have one option. I guess that’s going to be soon, There is a pretty major date coming up next week for things to change and I will have to see how that ends up.

Ok so thinking on it, it’s my birthday in a couple of weeks, seems like an appropriate deadline to me. It could be a time of change, one way or another it will have to be. I don’t want to have to leave, I can’t for the life of me figure out why not, but I don’t. I’m doing everything I can to sort things out but it’s not enough. Is anything ever enough?

and the world turns….