words XXIV

Fuck it, I just lost a posting by closing the wrong fucking window. So here is the short version.
– No movies tonight. I just didn’t feel up to it. I slept really badly last night and am pretty much asleep on my feet. I do feel like I missed out on something special tho.
– It is very strange to hear someone vocalise a thought you have had for a couple of weeks but just didn’t want to admit.
– AOL Anywhere. Buddy List on my phone this evening came in dead handy. I must remember this feature.
– I have 265 people on my buddy list.
– I would love a tool to show me who has me on their buddy list. I remember jokingly complaining (well not so much jokingly) that I was not on someone’s buddy list. It would be interesting to know whose I am on.
– Sigur Ros make a large number of their entire concerts available to download in mp3. This has kept me going in work very well.
– Music can change my mood in a second.
– I don’t think I’ve ever talked about my ‘Amy’ before last night.
– I am quite jealous of a friend who is getting to read Feist for the first time.
– I played some real bad chess yesterday and for the first game today but took the next two games quite comfortably.
– I am considering a private blog again. There is a lot going on I would like to get on paper (you know what I mean).
– Fear and Loathing ’72 isn’t really doing it for me….
– At some stage I need to talk about True Story: Swear to God as I read it last week and loved it. I even considered getting a second copy for someone.
– Music this week has been Sigur Ros, Smashing Pumpkins and the Manics
– I have a post moved into drafts which I doubt shall see the light of day. I don’t know how I define myself anymore.
– Sending emails after you have had some beers and some whiskeys is never a good idea. I am so glad I did not.
– I might take a day off work early next week. I have to take 5 before the end of March. Have two booked for St. Paddys day but no longer sure on plans for then.
– My sister uses some of my ftp space. She wanted to be able to show our parents photos easily and I have a half a gig free. So she has full access. I was wondering if she had snooped around and found this. Then it struck me that it wouldn’t bother me and perhaps if I cleared out the archives and did run a separate blog anyone could read this….
– Photos; I need to take more and I need to upload them. I keep saying some weekend I will and I never do, perhaps with that day off…
– I finally got a new bank card, over 3 weeks after mine expired leaving me unable to use any ATMs. Aside from being a nice new card, it has been upgraded to Switch and is a cheque guarantee card.
– ‘beard’…hmm still quite unsure about this.
– Feedback is, in general a good thing.
– Intense is a good word.
– Unsettled is a good word.
– Insecure is a good word.
– Intimidated is a good word.
– I miss my bike. I really need to get one over here. Not really too keen on cycling on the roads, but I think I could do allright alongside the river.

There is more, there is a hell of a lot more but I need to go and sleep so I shall leave you with some words of wisdom:

“But, by the time I figured this all out, it was too late; she moved on. And all I had to show for it was some foolish pride which then gave way to regret. She was the girl. I know that now. But, I pushed her away. So I’ve spent everyday since then chasing Amy. So to speak.”
Silent Bob Chasing Amy

Right some stuff in a little more detail.
Went to see Vanessa Carlton in the Shepherds Bush Empire last night. I didn’t really want to go and thought about just poping down and selling off a ticket but went anyway. Something to do eh? The set was only an hour long and it was the last night of a years tour. I wasn’t bad. Nothing great but some decent versions of her album, notably Paint it Black, A Thousand Miles and a really good version of Twilight. Further proof that adding drums can improve anything. So I had fun and it was worth the tenner or so the tickets cost me. Then I went back to the Albion to meet up with Nick for a beer to talk about some stuff. Patrick was there too and they had been hitting it pretty heavily. So stayed there for a while chatting and then Pat headed off home after having enough.

We kept going for a while and talked and drank till late. Lots of fallout going on from events at the start of the weekend and these are gonna reverberate for a while I guess. Donnie Darko is showing tonight in the PCC and I really want to go and see it. I don’t feel all that great (it’s been a rough few days) and somehow I can’t see myself doing something stupid before then (other than blogging that is) and therefore go along to it with complete disregard for how I’m feeling. I suspect I will go anyway, it’s too good a movie to pass up and I really want to see it again. That reminds me, I wanted to dig out Gary Jule’s Mad World cover to listen to. I shall do that now. Fuck it, I am going to the movie tonight. I cannot miss this, it’s just I have no idea what it is, but it just is. (Fucker will be sold out now, you watch.)

I have to admit, I love helpful friends. Especially when one of them helps after being told not to help and when the other one is Patrick. *sigh* Cause ya know that worked out really well last time.

Londo says it all.

‘Dear lady, I would love to walk with you on a beach, somewhere, for just five minutes. How strange to come so far and want so little.’

Updates later today.

bah

As we all know, the Taliban considers it a sin for a man to see a naked
woman who is not his wife.

So, next Saturday at 2:00 PM GMT all Irish women are asked to walk out of
their house completely naked to help weed out any neighbourhood terrorists.
Circling your block for one hour is recommended for this anti-terrorist
effort.

All men are to position themselves in lawn chairs in front of their house
to prove they are not Taliban, demonstrate that they think it’s okay to see
nude women other than their wife and to show support for all Irish women.
And since the Taliban also does not approve of alcohol, a cold six-pack at
your side is further proof of your anti-Taliban sentiment. The Irish
Government appreciates your efforts to root out terrorists and applauds
your participation in this anti-terrorist activity.

God bless Ireland!

IT IS YOUR PATRIOTIC DUTY TO PASS THIS ON!

WOMEN FROM LEITRIM AND LAOIS ARE ASKED NOT TO PARTICIPATE!!!

The Guardian on the Google Pyra deal.

Ev talks about Google & Pyra.

Congestion charging starts in the morning. I wonder how it will affect me getting to work. I am allowing more time and going to bed now. Hopefully it will be ok. I’m in training with Iain all day. And thats enough said on that.

Its just after two on Sunday afternoon, and I’m just out of bed. That’s two nights in a row I’ve not been in bed until after 4am. Got out to Iain’s around seven with the intent of helping him set up to find it was all done. Nicely timed on my part or what! Anyway the party kicked off and there was lots of laughing, joking and drinking (déjà vu much?), perhaps a little too much laughing but *shrug*.

So to go off in some tangents. I realised something really clearly on Friday night and had it reinforced even more last night. I enjoy writing here and I often look forward to it. When I was out on Friday night at one stage in the night I was thinking about what I would blog about it and when I thought of the title I was going to use, it all fell into place. Same again last night, thinking about what I was going to say well in beforehand and having the title come up. So yeah, I like writing here a lot.

I sent an email during the week to a lot of people who are suppose to be helping. Well, they were quite prepared to help but with some prerequisites. I wasn’t happy and we sent back an email saying no, then they asked why not. Well, it fell to me to reply to that one and I typed up an email. I knew the first draft of it was too aggressive and I had Dave read over it before I sent it. There was one line which I knew would have to be changed and it was. I was kinda surprised the rest was not. So I changed the line and sent the mail. I was so caught up in it I forgot to sign the mail and I’m pretty pissed off with myself about that. It ends now on a very harsh note without anything after that, which was not what I wanted. Well, it was, but I wanted to be a little more subtle. I was however quite gratified to get a private reply to it from Iain quoting my list line with the comment ‘Harsh, but fair’. That’s really been the theme of the week.

I’m listening to Zwan’s Mary Star of The Sea and it isn’t bad but it is lacking. Billy Corgan and Jimmy Chamberlin seem to be covering the same ground as the early Smashing Pumpkins albums and not even coming near to the glory of their later stuff. I am enjoying it (but then again I’ve always like Billy Corgan’s voice) but I’m hoping they can take it to the next level.

I remember having a conversation with Iain a while ago where I told him he had taken something way too seriously and it was certainly nothing that significant. At the time it was not a lie or at least I didn’t think it was. These days it would be a complete lie.

I had the strangest dreams last night. I know where some of them came in from and that’s a little worrying. I hadn’t realised it was as much a concern as to enter my dreams like that.

Somewhat in a direct connection from the last couple of lines, this blog would be far more complete if you were not reading it. Interesting huh? If there was no-one reading, then there would be nothing to hide and the typing would have so much more details in some cases. You have only yourself to blame for this.

Gah. Going to watch Buffy. More after.

Google has just bought Pyra.

Wow. I cannot see a downside to this straight off.

Yesterday was St. Valentine’s day, so of course around the world people did everything that comes with that. This meant a somewhat dwindled presence down the pub last night…or so I expected. Well, things would turn out a little differently. Headed to the Firkin after work for some drinks with a couple of the guys. Got there to find three groupings of people from work there already. By the end of the night, this turned into one large grouping around the pool table, laughing joking and drinking. It was a hell of a lot of fun along side an added bonus.

As the night was beginning to draw to a close a certain person who shall remain nameless made a suggestion that we continue on in the Hilton bar. At first I was going to give this a miss, but he managed to round up a couple of other people and well I just had to go along. The night only got better from that point on. We stayed there until sometime after 2am chatting away. I had a really really good night and one that could perhaps reverberate for a while. I’m going to see Donnie Darko in the PCC on Tuesday night and I guess I shall just have to see how that is affected.

Today I had planned on joining the Peace march through London with my camera. Unfortunately I slept straight through until half one and by that stage there was no way to get into the city centre to join the march. Tube stations were closed and buses were not running so I wandered along King’s Road instead, picked up a couple of books and a birthday present for Iain.

Which leads us nicely into plans for tonight. I’m going around to Iain’s for his birthday party. I’ve been the past couple of years and had fun nights both times. So going to pack some beer and vodka into a bag and head out there at 6ish. Our bathroom flooded yesterday, not badly but I’m at home waiting on the plumber now. The kitchen is almost done. Its completly useable, but it is going to be another two weeks before they can come back to finish off the last bits and pieces. So it’s not ideal but soon it will all be over.

I am now left wondering about the possibilities of parole.