words XXIV

There is only one way to keep a secret. Don’t tell anyone. If you are the only person who knows it then it is a secret. As soon as you tell one person it is no longer a secret.

It’s pretty hard to keep secrets around here. Someone knows something, they always do. Whether you tell them, or someone you told tells them or they pick up on it, someone knows something. This isn’t always a good thing, sometimes it can be kinda backward. But for the most case its pretty much respected. You don’t drop anyone in it….unless they want to be dropped in it of course.

Ya know I was gonna go somewhere with this, but its just turned into a massive hissy fit and I’m gonna just give up. For fuck sake, talk about fucking unnecessary bollocks. Just be fucking glad I can’t reply to all.

So then good morning. I’m slightly hungover for the first time in a while. Last night turned into some drinks pretty much out of the blue. Iain mentioned there was something on in the pub right behind the office and along we went. Not really much else to say on the night, other than it was good fun with good friends and cute girls. Always a plus 🙂

[15:52:54] Anon: thursday ? you got plans
[15:53:10] Dave: nope, don’t think so
[15:53:12] Dave: why?
[15:53:26] Anon: getting people together to go out
[15:53:31] Dave: ok
[15:53:34] Dave: where to?
[15:53:41] Anon: BRB
[15:55:17] Anon: you have to be on your best behavour
[15:55:45] Dave: when am I ever not?
[15:58:18] Anon: emm every day with an ‘a’ in it
[15:58:55] Dave: uh huh
[15:58:57] Dave: so what is this?
[15:59:25] Anon: i just want an adult like group of people to go out that night
[15:59:52] Dave: what the fuck are you on about?
[16:01:46] Anon: well are you interested?
[16:02:07] Dave: sure, are you gonna explain it now?
[16:02:16] Anon: no
[16:02:30] Anon: it’s just a nice social few drinks
[16:03:03] Dave: uh huh
[16:03:07] Anon: dress nice

hmm, looks like someone needs some help and some cover. Wonder who she is 😉

I just had lunch with Iain and we were talking about the day that was in it. Its fairly quiet around here and aside from the tension and the memories, there is a little bit of reservation. Its just a case of sit in the back seat and watch.

At least that’s what I thought it was. I’m talking to a friend and colleague in the US at the moment and I feel a little guilty about my earlier thoughts. Hmm more later….tomorrow maybe

I don’t want to go to work tomorrow. I know I’m not the only person but that doesn’t help. I don’t want to see news headlines. I’ve stopped looking at Metafilter, I read half the headline article at keyword news and I just don’t want to read any more. I imagine like many others tomorrow I’m going to have a news feed running on my desk. It feels like I’m waiting for something to happen.

What nice happy thoughts to go to sleep with. Fuck.

On a releated side note, I can’t believe it was year ago. Fuck.

So it turn out that there are only 5000 copies in the world of the books we picked up last night and they are all sold out. We had semi-joked during the night about the thought we should have bought them all and put them on eBay. After hearing that news we were kicking ourselves…or in Dave’s case my desk for not doing so.

I fucking hate this world. I just cannot believe it still exists. I fucking hate this world. Sometimes I just don’t believe we deserve to live as a race. I’ve just come across a figure, I always knew it was a damn big number. Bigger perhaps than I can grasp in that context. But I had to go and run calc so I could get the figure to use it for reasons to be come clear later. In WW2, estimates range from between 50 and 60 million people were killed. Over a 5 year period, that worked out to around 30,000 a day, a fucking day.

So, tonight was the “evening with Ray” as we have been referring to it. Dave and I fucked off out of work shortly after four to get into Borders Oxford street in plenty of time for the 6:30 talk. We were the first there. Which was good, what was even better was they did in fact have several copies of the Magician 20th anniversary edition. It is leather bound, with marble end pages and an embossed cover. Translation: it is quite nice. Magician is not only one of my favourite fantasy books, it is one of my favourite books. They had seven for sale. There were three left when we were done. So I have that signed by Raymond E. Feist and I am more than happy about that. It was also a very reasonable £25. Oh and it also has some great chapter illustrations.

The talk was pretty good. Ray was quite funny and definitely entertaining. I was very glad to have gone along. In the good news front there is a good chance of more dark fantasy along the lines of Faerie Tale which I love and also the chance of two science fiction novels. I really like the sound of all of them ALOT. All in all a good evening. I hadn’t planned on buying his latest book in hardback, I normally wait for paperbacks but after hearing him talk I wanted it. So I picked it up and oh yes got it signed.

I hate the fact that my computer can’t render this properly and know I will spend some time in work tomorrow playing this. Pingis is a spectacular game, the detail and skill gone into it are just superb. It’s also damn addictive.

Series 7: The Contenders wasn’t great, in fact it was kinda bad. Nice concept but already covered pretty well in another Arnie movie The Running Man. Ending was kinda shit but left with a laugh. General consensus in the reviews is nice idea poorly executed and I think I would agree with that.

Work tomorrow…blah. I don’t know how much I actually have to do. I know I don’t feel like getting up in the morning already but then again I never do. The internet is so boring these days. I’m finding it harder and harder go get some decent entertainment out of it. Maybe it will all be better in the morning, now I’m gonna go sleep.

Vanilla Sky opens with a Radiohead track; Everything in it’s Right Place. I cannot ask for more than that from a movie.

Penélope Cruz is not all that attractive, Cameron Diaz is somewhat cute but not all that special. Jason Lee is particularly good as the best friend.

Cameron Crowe selects the best possible music for the soundtracks of his movies. I might have to pick this one up. Really enjoying it so far, funny and entertaining.

It takes a little turn for the strange throughout the second act and

I like the concept of the “lucid dream” it sounds very cool. Strong shades of Total Recall showing through, that was an action movie with some great concepts, this is the same concepts given heart and soul.

Ya know, its actually quite a sweet little movie once it all falls into place with a couple of pretty touching moments and a truly good ending. It does take a little to get there and the journey might not lead where you expect it to, but in the end it is rewarding.