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disappointment

t noun [MASS NOUN] the feeling of sadness or displeasure caused by the non-fulfilment of one’s hopes or expectations: to her disappointment, there was no chance to talk privately with Luke.

n [COUNT NOUN] a person, event, or thing that causes such a feeling: the job proved a disappointment | I was a big disappointment to her.

Damnit. Chess was going much better today. I won 5 games in a row which helped my score quite a bit. I was playing someone with a score 50 higher than me, so a win there would have helped nicely. But no I had to go and make a stupid mistake just when I managed to turn the game in my favour. Fuck.

Stones taught me to fly, and love taught me to lie, and life taught me to die

Right, back up into the magical blue of the 1200’s after winning best of three. Good games they were too.

Gave Patrick a ring this afternoon to see if he was doing anything tonight. As it turned out he wasn’t so we agreed to meet up and wander around the West End cinemas and find something to see. We eventually settled on the Jim Carrey comedy Bruce Almighty and as it turned out, it was very funny and we both enjoyed it a lot. Jim Carrey really is an excellent actor and does a great job in what is more then a comedy role. Morgan Freeman is as ever excellent and is a great “god”. Worth a watch.

Soundtrack for the evening has been Damien Rice’s debut O. It’s a very plain and simple album. Vocals are at the forefront accompanied by some guitar, cello and violins. It’s “unplugged” as the word first meant. Think David Gray but with a Dublin accent, less beat and a lot less of the wobbly head. Add a lot to that and your maybe getting close. It’s good stuff and it’s really fitting my mood.

I don’t really know what to say about the recent events between the BBC and the government. I was sitting here thinking I wanted to put something down when I see in the news that Peter Mandelson felt it was appropriate to launch an attack on the BBC today. In light of recent events I would have thought both sides would clean up their act, all involved have blood on their hands. I wonder how this one is going to end up.

I really really really hate “text speak” and all caps. If only internet ettiqute could be enforced or I be allowed to cull for the sake of the gene pool.

It’s funny to think that I fall into the twenty-something gatagory. Ok the lower end of it but it makes me laugh (albiet nervously). Pat and I were talking this evening and one of the things that came up was that our stock price is improving. We were joking about the first grant we got way back when in Dublin. I say way back when but I stopped for a moment when he pointed out that they fully have fully vested in December of this year. It was years ago that we got them. It’s kinda scary and yes something which I don’t think about all the time but often enough that I’ve noted it here before a few times. Just one of my small neuroses shining through again.

Stuff quickly and randomly
– regrets?
– Smoking is bad.
– Drinking is also bad.
– I neither drink nor smoke.
– Everest.
– pen and paper
– wanting
– sleep good.

Lost one and manged quite a comeback to win the second one so back over the all important 1200 level and promptly lost the third to be back down to a lowly 1179.

Fuck.

So in a very exciting weekend to date.
Last night I went food shopping in ASDA and put two loads of washing on while I sat around reading comics on the couch.
Today I have a load of washing on while I sit around on the couch typing.

I’m hungry, I have some nice stuff for lunch that I picked up last night. Tonight I might go out somewhere and have something nice.


Weapons expert slashed wrist
Police have confirmed a body found in Oxfordshire woodland is Dr David Kelly, as Tony Blair comes under intense pressure over the Iraq dossier affair.

So conclusive proof that a lack of food leads to a headache then. Been reading most of the night and it’s been good. Now I think I am just going to go and sleep and look forward to sleeping late in the morning.

Cinema tomorrow night I think and perhaps some walking. Without this headache I had been thinking about going out round London but not now. Tomorrow perhaps.

I’m not feeling so hot this morning. I didn’t sleep very well and I’m starving. I’ve a load of work piled up and I’m worried about some stuff and a little depressed. So I’m sitting there working away with my headphones on. I’m listening to JJ72’s second album I to Sky, second track Formulae for no apperent reason other than it being good music made me stop and smile. I for one think that’s pretty damn cool.